This doesn’t read like a photography question at all. You’re intrinsically valuable as a human being, worthy of love and happiness independent of your physical appearance. Stop comparing yourself and be yourself. You’ll never truly be anyone but you, but you can waste your whole life trying not to be. Shift your focus outward and you’ll find more peace inward.
I get around this by refusing to photograph people in general. People are so dumb that they think ‘nice looking camera means camera owner take pics of all subjects.’ Human beings are difficult, but somehow family and friends can be the worst ones.