I mean getting my picture taken and taking selfies. There are a few things about myself that I hate. When I’m alone I can sometimes take 'okay" selfies but the longer I look at them the more I hate them. If I try to take one with someone or with anyone watching, or if someone tries to take my picture I get SO tense and it’s a million times worse. I just want to take a decent picture and not cry after seeing it. (It doesn’t help currently on vacation w someone who is beautiful and takes amazing pictures every single time)
This doesn’t read like a photography question at all. You’re intrinsically valuable as a human being, worthy of love and happiness independent of your physical appearance. Stop comparing yourself and be yourself. You’ll never truly be anyone but you, but you can waste your whole life trying not to be. Shift your focus outward and you’ll find more peace inward.